On Sunday I’m going to Romania. I’ve been asked by friends and family why I’m going and what I’ll do when I get there. These have proved to be difficult questions to answer. I haven’t figured out how to communicate my reasoning with brevity, so I have taken the time to outline my reasoning below.
Last summer I read Bill Plotkin’s Soulcraft. The book inspired many revelations within me and catalysed a few shifts in my perspective. I came to see that I am a part of nature and that I have the wilds of nature within me, existing as my soul. I learnt we are engaged in a conversation with nature – and it wishes to speak with us – if only we knew how to understand its language.
The language of nature is a spiritual language, rich with metaphors and images. True elders, as well as our intuition and other embodied sensations, can aid our interpretation of Nature’s lexicon.
We are, like all other life that exists, a reed in a river bed, moving to the flow of Shiva’s dance. We are a physical manifestation of the Universal Will, aware of itself. As we sway and move to the ebbs and flows of the cosmos around us, we become like instruments, playing the rhythm of life through our actions.
Tuning into our souls, a perilous and taxing task, enables us to dance harmoniously to the rhythm of life, as we manifest the Earth’s dream.
Our descent to soul is risky, because we face the likely danger of death. An ego death.
When we come into contact with our deeper nature, whilst immersed by nature, we realise a part of us will have to die if we wish to mature and grow into the fullness our humanity.
Service comes when we recognise our gifts and connect with them, sharing our energy for the benefit of Mother and the more-than-human community of life she supports.
Knowing our gift isn’t enough. To aid the direction our journey through life takes, its important we come into contact with our mytho-poetic identity – a message understood through an image/symbol/encounter whilst engaging with Earth on the level of soul (On That Level). Understanding the image shared with us takes time, which is ok, as patience is an integral part of the journey.
To serve and function as well as we can – to be a finely tuned instrument – it’s important we begin the wholing process of our psyche.
Imagine our psyche as being anchored in the four cardinal directions – North, South, East, West. North, the nurturing generative adult, invokes our sense of responsibility and caring for our environments’ and nature. The South, the wild indigenous one, brings us into our bodies and enjoys the erotic and sensuous aspects of life. The West is our point of contact with our muse and inner beloved, who walk with us as we descend/ascend to/from soul, aiding our inspiration and sharing. In the East, we encounter our innocent and sage, being serious and fun-loving equally – remembering to laugh at ourselves when we’re taking ourselves and life too seriously.
Wholing our psyche’s requires us to identify our sub-personalities – the shadow of each cardinal direction. Subpersonalities are parts of ourselves which have developed throughout our lives that serve to protect us, but which really limit our capacity to live to the fullness of our potential. The sub-personalities, as shown above, include loyal soldiers, wounded children, shadow selves and escapists/addictions.
For greater insight into each of these aspects of the psyche I recommend reading Plotkin’s Wild Mind.
Healing work is challenging, because it requires us to confront the repressed/fractious aspects of ourselves, which inhibit our potential for life, vitality and meaning. I hope Romania will present opportunities for me to heal and whole myself. I also hope I encounter an opportunity to marry my ego to my soul. A process which I will write about at a later time.
All that I’ve shared with you is based on a few assumptions:
- Planet Earth is alive and has a soul
- We are a part of nature and connected to Earth through our souls
- Our soul and the Earth’s soul are attuned to the Universal Spirit running throughout, in/out, of the whole cosmos
It’s easy to forget, or perhaps more convenient to overlook our place within the cosmos. A truly mind blowing thought when we begin trying to imagine our place. The Universe has been unfolding for billions of years, all so it can support the ever so complex life that’s evolving on and through Earth.
We exist for a reason. We wouldn’t exist otherwise. It’s our responsibility to connect with our deeper, truer nature and manifest a reality aligned with the visions which come from this place. Otherwise, what’s the point? Perhaps Samsara is a thing – and if we don’t do it in this lifetime, then maybe we’ll do it in the next?
I choose to live beyond the rationalist, reductionist mind and opt instead to trust in the abundance of life and live in Faith.